I have not blogged for abt 3 months already because of my "busy" schedule. Projects, icas and co made my life dull and boring. No life, no life and no life. My life became dark totally. Can someone add some colors to my life? I suppose no one will becoz i'm liked blogging to nobody, a anoynomous blog tat nobody noes. Actually, besides blogging, i wrote my feelings in my dear diary. It has been with me since p6. Last time i felt tat blogging does not have a security, but now is ok.

Omg, 10 more days for Sydney only. Should we be happy? Excited? Or nervous? I don't wat will happen to us on the week tat we come back to S'pore. We have to rush for projects and study for icas. I'm sure tat I did not do very well for my past icas this sem. The prob is tat we dun hav time to study. This is the sacrifice tat we have to make for the trip. I hope tat our efforts will not pay off. I feel tat I did not contribute much for the projects this sem. I hope my grp members understand tat i was not using the intensive practices as an excuse. Haiz, projects made everyone reveals their true colors. Why do I say tat? When it comes to doing projects, we are selfish and will always think for ourselves only. Thats the reason tat i hate it. Becoz of projects, friendships are broken and all sorts of things happen.

I always ask myself wat are friends for. To help one another? To brave dangers together? To have fun together? Can we live without friends? I really dunno how to ans this becoz i admit tat i do not really treasure friendships. But i'm trying to learn from my past. Somehow, I could not hide my past deep in my heart. I tried to forget it and pretend tat nothing has happened. Why ppl say time will heal all wounds but why cant mine? Why problems are never-ending? One day I might end all ties with the world and I don't want to think of anything. I want to live in my own world with no projects, no studies, no co and no everything else. Or else i will go mad one day!